Its new, and its for you

Hello,

I was feeling like I needed an outlet. A place to put some random thoughts and feelings that weren't really appropriate for this blog. Where I just rant about me! So I made a new one.

http://shewrotethisforyou.blogspot.com/

Is where I did this.

Its not really for anyones enjoyment, rather, its a place I have given my mind to wander on its lonely, somewhat restless path. Its almost 100% fictional in that its not actually happening. But the basics of it is that its a girl, writing to the person she loves most in the world. Snippets of thoughts and feelings she wants to share with him in hopes that he will read it. Like a diary, or a series of letters.

I felt like I needed the outlet - so there it is. I don't know how often I will blog from there, but this place is all about sharing, and so consider it shared.

Night night!

Sam

MeMe's and the likes...

Yo!

So, I come on here, checking blogs, and all around me (not literally, but on the screen), I see these things called 'memes'. You know, like those chain mail emails you get, where you have to answer questions about yourself, or open a page of the book you are reading and post a snippet of it to tease your readers... Most people hate these things. I don't. Well, I do, but I don't. I love reading other peoples answers, and I love answering them myself, but I know my friends hate me for the email ones. It seems like the need to share useless information went out of fashion when exposing yourself for money (*coughcough* can we say hello to the Big Brother culture sitting in the corner with the dunce hat on?) came into fashion. It was one or the other, we can't have both. I think I am going to choose memes instead... I hope you understand and respect my decision?

I am just going to mindlessly blog, as I am not thinking too straight today. Just woke up (about 2 hours ago.. still in PJ's. Its Sunday, so sue me!!). I went out last night for my sisters birthday and decided I wasn't going to drink much. Just a couple. Nothing too big and fancy. Well, being in a Vodka bar doens't help, neither does the fact that the first 2 drinks I had were off the tray of shots I bought, which I swiftly followed down with a pitcher of Cherry Springer (vodka cocktail that tastes of Cherry coke.. mmmm). I drank this straight from the jug, with a straw. Classy. I think people would have understood more if they had seen me try to pour the damn thing into a glass. Someone has to invent an easier pouring device. really. they do. I can't pour for toffee!!

*Side note* Not sure if this will work every time, but me and my friend picked a random guy walking past, pointed at him and motioned the "You're OUTTA here" action a la baseball games. You know what I mean. Take a second to picture his reaction. stunned. laugh. say "that was a bit harsh.... can I buy you a drink?" Now, I don't know if we stumbled onto something big here. But this honestly would have gotten us a free drink if we had trusted him to not put a roofie in the mix. I am going to try this again soon and see what happens. I will keep you posted on my findings.

I have just learnt this about myself (fingers crossed this link works)

http://www.oneplusyou.com/bb/zombie?score=50

I have been told that I would have a 50% chance of surviving a zombie attack. I can't handle that. 50%??? 50? good lord. I would have liked either 60% or anything below 50. But FIFTY?

You may be wondering 2 things right about now.

A) why am I still reading this tripe?

2) whats so bad with 50%?

well, to answer the first point. I DON'T KNOW.

To answer the second. 50 just seems like too much pressure. If I was only a 40 percenter then I would at least know that I would be useless, and accept that I would die quite quickly. 60 percenter would mean I could fight it out, knowing I would more than likely continue in my non brain eating ways. but 50 is more like... teetering on the edge of a blade. Not knowing which way the wind is going to blow to knock me on my ass. You know? too much pressure to perform, and too much doubt to actually pull it off. These are the things one has to think about these days.

Right, just one more thing to talk about.. ok, make it two, and then I will go and get dressed!

One.

Halloween. It was so fun. I was all vamped up, with black contact lenses and such. my 2 friends that came out with me, who I pestered to make sure they dressed up, hated me because I didn't have a costume on, just the makeup. But then, why would i dress up, when I was being a vampire - vampires don't have costumes, they just have clothes! right?!!! I will try to get a picture up on here with my black contacts and blood on my face. it was a good look!!

Two.

I finished the Twilight series yesterday morning, in my hungover state. I was trying to read Breaking Dawn really slowly, because I didn't want it to end. I was expecting a horrible ending, and was prepared to have to throw the book in the bin, and pretend like it never happened. But I didn't. Because it ended brilliantly. How I hoped it would, but didn't want to invest too much hope INTO because I didn't think an author would be that nice to her readers. Loved it. Love Stephanie Meyer. I want to be in the Movie,but I know its too late, so I am thinking, get acting lessons, an agent, and get drunk, and try to get into the next movie somehow. Haha. Note to self, the last Harry Potter is also on my list of movies to try to get into!!! I like to set myself stupid goals in life!

Ok kiddies. Happy 2nd of November.

Sam

Time is on my side... um, no its not!

Oof!

Where does time go? It seems like 5 minutes ago that I walked through my front door from a particularly funny day at work. And yet, 3 hours later I find myself wondering why time slips through my fingers so, especially when it feels like this week has gone way too slow. I can't wait for tomorrow. That's the only reason time WOULD slow down, isn't it? Hmm, I am still going to part blame it on the Super Collider. Its got a lot to answer for, I can tell you that.

Ooooh, I love a good conspiracy.

Anywho! I am aching. I mean, really really aching. I have had a good work out today, but I didn't push myself, as I know I haven't really done much exercise in about a month due to poor health and holidays.. but why does that have to mean that when I try to do something again, my body punishes me for it? Stupid body!! It should take this health thing more seriously, instead of trying to make me stay in bed for days!!!! Sometimes there is no reasoning with it at all!!! I think its really punishing me for not having Lucozade today, when I promised it could have some. It needed the physical edge, and I just drove past it, waving mildly, as I made my way to Latte Town. Tomorrow, my sweet, tomorrow! << class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">Bugsy Malone.. "tomorrow, tomorrow never comes... " good times!

Speaking of time and tomorrows, how about yesterdays?

I went to see Ghost Town. It was funny. I know it was funny. I remember it being funny, but for the life of me, I can't remember how it ended. Scenes flash into my head, but I can't remember what the end was!! I hate it when that happens... :( If you have seen it and remember it, well.. don't tell me. It will only spoil it for people who haven't seen it yet. And I think you should. It was a good film!! I didn't even mind watching Ricky Gervase's (sp?) face for a couple of hours! :D Result!

Now, moving to tomorrow. Its Halloween, and my place of work is suited and booted to the nines for the event. I am not dressing up to go in, I will wear normal clothes... I think dressing up at work is embarrassing, and would rather do it in my own time!! ;)

The night looks set to be fun though, and my evening tonight consists of attempting to make fake blood. From scratch. People can't say I don't make an effort. My vampire make up and eyes are all set, all I need is a good outfit. But its not important really. Its of course, all about the face.

I feel like when tomorrow is over, I will have nothing else to look forward to. I guess bonfire night. FIREWORKS! WOO!

REMEMBER REMEMBER THE 5th OF NOVEMBER!!

Have a happy, happy, happy Halloween,

Sam

Elbows, Ears and Eyes

OMG!
(I never say OMG, I just really felt like it then..)
Anyway, back to the blog. I went to see the band Elbow

and they were good. And I don't just mean good. I mean the kind of good like when you are eating a yummy doughnut, or something, and someone asks you how it is and you reply 'GOOOOOOOOOOOD', with both delight and satisfaction.

Although I think I say this every time I come home from a gig, I will say it anyways. They were the best band I have ever seen live. The music, the singing. It was brilliant. Amazing. I would see them time and time again. It was also quite a nice atmosphere (despite the many drunks around), as they were back in their home town, Manchester, so it was kind of like a welcome home sort of thing. I really do love this band. I would highly recommend listening to them. I don't think I have ever met someone who doesnt like them. The music is beautifully written.

Just to prove how versatile they are, I can confess. My mum came with me to the gig. She loves them too. And she likes people like Hue & Cry (although, lets face it, they were great) and Will Young (everyone mum loves Will Young... something I will never understand). And OK OK, my mum does have diverse taste (for instance, she loves Prodigy), but, she is still a mum... In fact, come to think of it, there were a lorra lorra.. how to put this.. mature people (safe to say that, right?), there.

I also have to say that the support act was also spiffing. She was kooky and interesting, and had the clearest voice I have heard live. It was like silk in the air... She was called Jesca Hoop (I am listening to her right now). Gotta say, I think she was better live, than recorded. Which is a shame. Its usually the other way 'round! I love how she sounds British when she is singing, but when she speaks she has that gravley husky L.A voice, thats so cute when it comes out of a tiny girl!

My mum didn't appreciate her as much as I did though. She kept doing that thing that people do when they aren't interested, and started looking around instead. Which always bugs me. Its like when people do it at the cinema when watching a film. Puts me off totally.

Me and my mum have a strange relationship. I just can't bring myself to be nice to her often. I can hardly tolerate her. And I know its my fault. I was very proud of myself in the fact that we left the house at 6:30 and managed to still be on talking terms when we got back in at 11:30.

I am a very tolerant and laid back person. But she manages to push ALL my buttons. I know alot of people have this problem. I don't want to, but I fear I can not look past the annoyances she causes me day after day. I love her. Don't get me wrong. But....urgh! I think thats enough of that now anyway! :)

I have another gig coming up on Sunday, in a local bar. One of my brothers friends is playing. I wish that one day I have the guts to sing in public. But I doubt I ever will. I am not too good on the guitar, but I love it. I don't know if I am any good at singing either, but again. Love to do it. I don't know how people do it in public though!

I think this is all the blogging I am going to do right now. If you have any bands that you love and want to share with people, do it here!! I love finding out about bands I have never heard of!

Share and Share alike!

Sam

ps. on the doing something I don't usually do front, I still don't think I have managed it, so I am thinking this weekend I will, and I will let you know how I do trying to deviate from my usual pattern!!

Patterns

Well.

I just watched the film The Illusionist. Edward Norton, Jessica Biel, Rufus Sewell, Paul Gia... whatever he is called. And as soon as it finished I was disappointed. It was too obvious for my liking. It followed a certain pattern most films follow. Making the ending a total bore. To someone like me, anyway, who theorises the whole way through until the film ends and I can judge whether I was right or wrong.

This film didn't have me theorising much. I thought (sorry, spoilers for anyone who hasn't watched this movie... even if it is a few years aged), that it could either be about a man who has lost his love and so desperately wants her back that he tries to conjure her up from the 'other side' - this was a rather more romantic notion that I had hoped was true, as mushy as it may seem, it would have been more other worldly, leaving more to the imagination - especially when Edward N made his character disappear - a kind of poetic end (had it been the end), as this was his aim from the beginning of the tale. Not so much as a nugget of luck on that plot though.

Nope. Instead. It was all a ruse! AHA! I hear you cry. A ruse? No way. A film, with a twist in the plot? You are all aghast with delighted surprise, are you not? She wasn't dead after all... Just like i assumed, but didn't want. It was all a trick to bring down that dreadful, dreadful prince, who was hell bent on taking over the Empire. This would have been fine, had I not felt more compassion for him than the magician. As the prince thought he was actually in the right. He might not have been, but bless his little cotton socks for trying. The magician wanted what he gave up years ago (like most men) and so destroyed the princes' life, thus driving him to kill himself - Magician and poor little rich girl live happily ever after.

I wish it hadn't happened that way. But it made me remember. I was walking home the other day... no, this tale doesn't involve a magician or a prince. *SIGH* Wish it did... No, I was walking home when it struck me. I am in such a rut. Such a complete rut that I am sure, would I be a movie, everyone would know what I was going to say or do next. Patterns that we all follow throughout the day/ week get me down. I always think of myself as spontaneous. A free-ish spirit that no one can predict. Mysterious and unreadable by most. I fear the opposite is true. I fear everyone knows me so well that they can predict what I am going to do, or how I am going to react to something. It depresses me slightly.

Do you ever feel like that? Like you are just marching along to the same old tune? I feel like breaking out of it. Who's with me?

Do something tomorrow that you wouldn't usually do... nothing big. I ain't saying rob a bank, just... do something you might usually avoid doing, like waking up half an hour earlier to have more time in the day... ? no? too much? OK... come up with something yourselves. Let me know what you did and how it went. I need inspiration!!

I bet you think I am going to sign my name at the end of this.

I'm Not.

Its ALMOST halloween.

Yes.

There is still a ridiculously child like side to me (which I am grateful for), that gets giddily excited about the impending October the 31st celebrations. Each year I await its arrival, only to greet it with a bit fat nothingness of celebrations. I love it, though I don't often do anything fun or different on that night.

I want to this year, and have already started to tell people that we are going out. Even if its just to the local pub, everyone is to get dressed up! Mandatory is not a strong enough word to use. I am thanking my lucky *stars* that Halloween is on a Friday this year!! I am definitely in the mood to tear it up. WOO! (or should I say 'Boo'?)

Without wanting to do the boring dressing up thing, I have gone for the oh-so original 'vampire' look. It actually makes me laugh. Everyone thinks that vampire is boring. "Everyone does the Vampire thing". Well. I actually can't remember the last time I saw someone dressed up like a vampire at Halloween, so I am going with it. Cue black contact lenses (I fear for my life knowing I am going to have to attempt to put those bad boys in!), pale skin (not hard to manage, I am the palest person I know), darkened skin under eyes, sunken cheeks and, if I can manage it, some pretty realistic looking teeth. I hope the outcome is quite scary. I am not one to go for the 'sexy' look, when I can go for frightening instead!! Now all I have to think about is my outfit. But I am sure that won't be a problem.

Now some interesting fact from our sponsor - Halloween.

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Halloween, or Hallowe’en, is a holiday celebrated on the night of October 31. Halloween activities include trick-or-treating, ghost tours, bonfires, costume parties, visiting "haunted houses", carving Jack-o'-lanterns, reading scary stories and watching horror movies. Irish immigrants carried versions of the tradition to North America in the nineteenth century. Other western countries embraced the holiday in the late twentieth century. Halloween is celebrated in several countries of the Western world, most commonly in the United States, Canada, Ireland, Puerto Rico, Japan, New Zealand, United Kingdom and occasionally in parts of Australia. In Sweden the All Saints' official holiday takes place on the first Saturday of November.

Now that that's over with (I was of course paid by Mr. Halloween himself to insert those facts and figures into my blog), I can continue.

If you are reading this, what do you plan to dress up as for All Hallows Eve? and do you have any fun stories from past celebrations??

Loving and Leaving.

Sam

This aint gonna be easy

Work.

YES! Work is over for 2 WHOLE days. This week has gone so slow. Did I even go to Paris? I don't think it really happened. Crud in a spud!

I don't think I mentioned this in my last blog, but I went to see the movie How to Lose Friends and Alienate people (Not aliens in it, don't worry Kait!! :) ), and it was so much better than I expected. Considering I don't really like 'popular' comedy or comedians. And this film had the overly rated Simon Pegg in it. It was a pleasant surprise to be greeted with a light hearted, sometimes cringe-worthy, laugh along but not too loud film. I think most films these days aim for the big laughs which, with me, usually fall flat on their face. For some reason I can't laugh if I know the whole theatre is laughing around me. I like to laugh at the little things people don't laugh at. Like people getting their heads blown off... anywhooooo, Yes. This film didn't try to go for the huge laugh out loud, gritty, in your face scenes. Well, I don't think it did. The light chuckles was actually more pleasing to me than a room full of laughing people. It seems more personal.

I don't have much planned for this weekend - I never do. I am actually loving being boring at the moment. Just staying in, or going for a walk with a friend. It means I get to relax and not think about work. I know that if I go out, I will see people from work and that makes me think of work. Which is against the rules at the weekend. Although I LOVE all the people I work with. Just love them. Its stupid. I couldn't imagine not seeing them every day. :) Makes it harder to leave. crap.

I have just attempted to put on my HUGE fake eyelashes. And now my eye is all sticky with the glue. oops. Too much glue is bad for you. That should have been a slogan in the 90's. They are a bit too big me thinks, but I might wear them anyway, just for sh!ts and giggles.

I don't actually have anything to say in this blog, I am just keeping my hands busy. I am trying to learn some new songs on my guitar. But I can never think of any to learn when I want to. Which is annoying. If you know of any songs that might be good to learn on an acoustic guitar, shout up! I need help!

God, I am losing the plot. I am so sure there was something I was going to write about. And now I can't remember. Oh well.

NO NO NO. I remember now. Apparently today is the day the world ends. (again? yep.). The Geneva scientists are going all out after finishing their config of the Super Atom Collider, or whatever they are calling it, today is the day that they actually make atoms collide, thus making a black hole (they think), recreating the creation of the universe inside a controlled environment.

1. How do they know its a controlled environment when its never been controlled before and

B. How do they think they are going to make 2 atoms collide, really? Have you ever tried? its like throwing a live bee at a puppy and hoping it makes contact. Its-a-gonna take-a-while. mmhhhhmm.

Right, live long. But if not. Tell everyone you love them today. Why not? Even if the world doesn't end, its nice to hear.

I love everyone.

Sam