December came and went, melting with the snow

Brrr.

The snow! Which is all gone now, but boy was that annoying!

I have taken a break from the blog world pretty much all of this month I think - and I did it on purpose. What with all the coldness and working, and university work and my lack of enthusiasm for anything that involved any kind of thought process.

I think I'm going to re design my blog again. I don't know how or why, it was just a passing thought! I like doing all the colourful words and what not, but it is time consuming, so I don't know whether that is going to stay. I feel bad though because I think the colours are what make people stay and read ( if people do in fact read my blog ). We will see what happens.

So that was Christmas then? Another reason I didn't blog (I was reading them though), was because I kind of felt like there was nothing I could have added to the blogging world. Everyone had pretty much covered it. Snow? Check! Spending too much? Check! Eating too much? Check Check Check! But at the moment I am procrastinating so I figured that the best time to blog was when I was supposed to be writing an assignment. Which I just can't do right now.

I have had a damn cold for 3 weeks. 3 whole weeks of coughing, sniffing, being bunged up and now not being able to hear properly as my ears are blocked! Grrr. When will this end? Probably when I have to go back to work. Life's funny that way.

Ahhh, work. The work which I am going to quit this year. FOR DEFINITE. I say it every year, but I really feel like it's killing me slowly these days. I am hating every second of it, and I love my colleagues, and they were my only reason for staying in all the doom and gloom times, but not any more. I have started to see them as the enemy too, so I feel I HAVE to leave, if not for my sake, but for the sake of my friendships!

I ran out of things to say, so I will say, Happy New Year! I'm staying in this year and playing X box with my boyfriend (which he got me as a present) - who's with me? hehe.

Sam

Achoooo...!

Rarr!

Again, I have been struck down with a terrible illness - yes, you got it. The dreaded cold! It hit me - BANG - on Monday night. Monday day I was fine. In fact, you could say a picture of health, but when I got into bed that night I realised something was up. Grrr. I have been suffering ever since. No work. Cancelled all social appointments, which I hate doing, but inevitably always seem to have to do for stupid reasons! I swear, I am such a bad friend. My intentions are good, but when it comes down to it, I always seem to be busy/ have double booked/ completely forgotten I should be meeting someone. I think its because I have several friendship groups, so I have to try to fit everyone in, and then manage to fit no one in. Like I said, rubbish. But that's not the point of this blog. Then again, I have never known what the point of this blog is, so its ok.

I am currently typing on my swish new laptop, which I love, but feel guilty using, as my old laptop is still upstairs on my desk - not knowing whats going on, or why I have kind of abandoned it recently. But, what can you do? I form attachments to inanimate objects and find it hard to let go, and move on. Curses. I think I will end up giving my Toshiba to my sister so she can look after it, and I can visit it from time to time. Yes. That sounds like a good plan.

Anyway, I was talking about my illness. Which is getting better, but I am currently in the last stages of the cold, which means its clinging on to me for dear life and making my life hell. I have asthma, and most of the time its completely fine. I get wheezy in the winter and need to use an inhaler when exercising but apart from that I generally have it under control. So this cold hits my chest when I have no inhaler as its just run out.... grrreat. I will now be wheezing and coughing and spluttering for the next day or two. Curses. Why hasn't anyone figured out how to make a cold go away in a day? That's what I want to know.

As I am to recover tonight, I am hoping I will be feeling a little bit better tomorrow as I am planning a cinema day to catch up on yet more films. Its not like I have spent the past week watching films on the movie channels... no... not me... :)

Anyway - hope everyone in the blogging land is well. I need to spend more time on here catching up with "stuff", and now my new laptop works, I might be able to... I am also going to part time next week at work for the next 9 months, as my Open Uni course starts on the 2nd Oct. Woo!

Sam

I'm not feeling too good...

Meh!

I was battling a swollen gland all week, got some strepsils and was eating loads of veg to combat illness - but no! My looong weekend has to be ruined by, what I'm thinking is the onset of tonsillitis! Just this time last year I was struck down by it, and now, again? Why? What did I do to deserve such a horrible pain in my throat?

Seriously, my right tonsil is so huge it might explode. And joy - doctors are closed. I have just had to text my friend, who's a doctor, and ask her how I go about getting medication when the docs is shut, but I have a feeling she will tell me to go to the hospital, but I am NOT wasting my Saturday to sit in the hospital. I have way too much to do! I am going to London for 4 days and I haven't even got a bag to carry all my crap in! Pft. Angry!

On a side note - It's Friday! I'm happy about that - and the fact that I'm not back to work until Thursday - and the fact that I, so far (touch wood), don't have any of the other horrible symptoms of tonsillitis, so here are some happy making pictures - so you, too, can have a happy weekend:

Toodles all!


Sam

God wanted me to be ill...

Waaaa!

God wanted me to be ill so I could blog. That's it. Reason for everything, right there. I got another email asking where I had gone (thanks for showing concern Lena :P ), and whaddaya know? I get struck down ill and finally have time to blog.

I seriously am mostly busy all the time these days. Faffing around every night of the week, trying to fit everything in, and I admit, blogging falls to the wayside. But it shouldn't really, because I DO enjoy it. I do!

There are a lot of things to catch you up on. Although, you know I won't be able to remember them now I'm up here at the podium.

The best place to start is right here, right now and work my way back (whoever said starting at the beginning was the best place was on drugs for sure!). I HAVE TONSILLITIS! I do. Its here. Residing in me. OH JOY! Can you hear the gospel choir? Maybe its just me. I have been a little out of it today. It all started last Thursday.... kind of. Because, I have been putting off the illness for about 3 weeks (what? I had stuff to do. It wasn't convenient!), but it finally caught up with me on my busiest weekend of the year! Typical. I guess the warning signs were there. I literally couldn't breath for 2 weeks. And then Thursday. I was fine Wednesday. I promise. But Thursday? I felt like I had been hit by the mother of all colds. It would have been fine. I dosed up and went to work (much to everyone's complaints), went home half way through the day (I think... but now I can't remember), went back in on Friday because everyone knows if you skip work/ school in the day, you can't go out at night, but I wanted to see the boyfriend, so I went over and lay comatose on his sofa while he tended to my hallucinatory state of being. I then went home. Slept. Got up... again, dosed up, but it was all sunny so I felt better anyway, and then it started. The entire day outside at the Coldplay gig in Manchester. It was amazing, I have to say.

Me and my friend got there for about 4 and wandered around the place getting food and seats, and then the bands started. Which were cool. White Lies, Jay-Z and then when the sun went down, Coldplay. And it was one of the best gigs I have been to. We went into the crowd for their part to keep warm. As luck would have it, some genius people decided to try to get through the crowd with cigarettes in their hands (the world is full of smart and thoughtful people isn't it?), a lot of people were drunk by the time they even started (I still don't get why people would get drunk at a gig...), and the clowns next to me started taking pills and rolling spliffs. Awesome. But Coldplay were amazing. I can't praise the show enough. The interaction with the crowd was really good, and the stage set was brilliant too. I would watch them again and again (with a coat on). Of course, spending 2 hours trying to get back to the halfway point to the train

station home was a downer. The trip there took about 30 minutes max. I was so cold and ill it wasn't funny. We missed the last train home and had to get picked up in the end. Still, would do it again!

Bed.

Wake up, and its Sunday, so I went over to see the boyfriend again, just check up on him. You know. You can't leave them alone for too long! And then I was off out again to another gig. This time it was Ray Lamontagne. I love Ray. I really do. He is so talented. Again. I could watch him forever. But all this, without a coat... and it was SO cold in the venue. So I wake up on Monday and I can hardly swallow, but I'm going strong. Working as well as I can, because I have loads of work to do, and I go to see the boyfriend again because he was cooking me dinner. (He is a good find), and I couldn't stop shaking. I couldn't. I was freezing. So I had to go home early, and I woke up feeling fine. Of course, Tuesday afternoon I was shivering again, and then sweating, and then shivering... I rang the doctors, went to see them today and I speak only the truth, she said to me "Ohh dear, that's NOT good".... My tonsils are shot to hell. I am shivering as I type this, but also keep getting really hot. So no work for me tomorrow. I am glad, and not glad, because I hate going in to work and no one has done my stuff whilst I have been gone... Selfish, I know, but my stuff needs to be done! Ahhh. Oh well. I have to let myself rest apparently. humph. I ain't happy about that!

Rant over. I hope you appreciated the in depth run down of my sickness. ha ha. On a side note completely off that topic, I have done so much since I last blogged that it would be impossible to recap. I went to Ikea, I saw loads of films. Had a rant at the Unlimited people at cineworld because I don't think I'm getting a good enough deal for my dollar. um... oh yeah. And I am currently obsessed with baking. I am still in the preliminary stages of it all, but its all about pies, cakes, muffins, cookies and brownies with me at the moment. Its insane. I haven't made anything worth taking a photo of yet, but I'm making carrot cake on Saturday so I'll wack a photo up here. I did some delusional baking the other day and made the best sponge I have ever made. Score!

Finally, because I'm running out of things to talk about, Halloween is coming up. I love Halloween. With a passion, so me and boyf and a friend are throwing a Halloween party at his house. Its all planned. Making a guy Fawkes style body to hang out of a window with a knife in its back, and fake grave stones for the garden. Its going to be swell. And my outfit is on its way. I will link you up to the site once it arrives and I deem the site worthy of promoting. But so far the personal touches of the website have been top notch.

I'm going to have to love and leave. Its starting to get hot in here... might be my laptop on my knee..

Toodles all.

Sam

One more time

Mmm.

We don't stop.

Guess what? Guess what? I am the worst time keeper in the world. And I can't manage time either. So I can't manage it and i can't keep it - I guess the only thing to do is let it go and if it loves me it will come back...? Is that the rule? I am officially letting time go.

Its been over 2 months since I blogged, and to be honest, its because I couldn't be bothered to blog. I lost the love of it. I wanted to write, but I felt what I was writing was, well, dull. And of no importance to anyone but myself. Blogging is a selfish thing isn't it? But on a whole I do try to entertain. I think I lost the sparkle of it all along the way. Sad. I know.

But I'm back. Nothing extremely exciting has happened. Um... lets see, since April I think... Well, I have been working. No change there. Got together with a guy. Who is now officially the boyfriend, but me and my work colleagues have titled him B'f (pronounced buff, as if you didn't know!). Yes, its been fun. It was also my birthday on the 1st June. Which was good, and pleasant and all the things birthdays should be.

Friends, gifts, hugs, kisses and people forgetting, and then remembering and feeling bad about forgetting. As per then.

The only thing that has changed really is my room is a mess (wait.. I said change... that's not a change Sam!). I have a new musical instrument. A ukulele. Woo! And more DVDs. Which is good. I am also suffering from a cold. A bad, bad cold.

I was getting it last week (not swine flu, stop panicking. Stop it, I can see it in your eyes. Don't worry!), but decided that I couldn't have it then because I had a shit mad busy week and an even busier weekend at York races for a Hen Do. (a classy one, mind). So yeah, my body listened to me. it hit me hard yesterday and even worse today. Cut to scene: Sam sitting at her lap top in her PJ's. Obviously not been to work today....

I am hoping that me 'resting' today means tomorrow I will be better, because I have a date with a boy which must involve kissing (it must, no 2 ways about it), and on Saturday I have to be in top form for seeing Transformers at the IMax in Manchester. So. I have given myself today to catch up on rest and all my Internet obligations. Which made me sad.

I love Internet obligations. To tweet or not to tweet. Sadly, more often than not I don't. Because when i use the Internet its just to email the Bf and that's pretty much it (one track minded girl now... erm... not). But I have realised I have to make time. So one day a week I will blog. I will. I must. But when? God knows. Again, whats with time. Where does it go? I always complain about time, but I seriously can't fathom a way to use it to my advantage. Ah well. Never mind, eh?

I will probably go now. Go and sit and take more tablets and hope that this is it for the cold. Ooh, an invite to the cinema.. should I? I would feel bad to go when I couldn't go to work... but... but.... I want to go. Damn it. I will have to ponder this for a while. Anyway. Its good to be back, and I hope at least one person other than me reads this.

I will return in a few days to update on the Transformers movie. Its important you all know what I think of that whore Megan Fox. hehe.

Sam

Oh the times they are a changing

Woosh.

What a busy few weeks. I can't really remember where I left this, but once again I failed miserably to blog anything. I have been rushing around like mad of late, and its definitely wearing me down. A few updates are probably needed.

Make up course - its going well, its uber fun but tiring. I don't know what I will do when it finishes, because it will be up to me to pursue it as a career if I want to, which is a scary concept. I don't know, I am still in two minds, because I want to do it, a lot, and I want to get into film or TV, but its hard work and I am bad when it comes to getting into something that's hard work. I want to do it, but I need someone to shove me into it. We got our assignment on Saturday, and its a right old bastard of an assignment. I don't know what the hell I am supposed to do, but I am hoping mine comes out OK. I have taken to being the master photographer for the girls on the most, because I have the most expensive and best camera. Ha ha, like I need an excuse to take pictures. Its been a fun time, getting people to pose in their makeup etc. And emailing them to everyone. The creative monster in me likes to get out every now and then. I will try to put a picture or two up here now they are on my laptop. Here to hoping no one minds their face being plastered on the Internet... Eekers.

I have been a little under the weather over the past...oh, I don't know... 3 weeks. Feeling exhausted and sick all the time, having no appetite and having shakes. Like I'm cold, when I'm not. I finally had to go to the doctors today and get felt.. I mean, checked. Blood tests came next. I have never had my blood taken, so I was left in the waiting room for about 40 mins stewing in fear and hypochondria. Everything that could be wrong with me going through my head. It might be gall stones. Hmmm. I won't google it, because I am sure I will be scared and I KNOW it involves an operation. Ah! No. Not for me, I don't think I will have that. I also have to do a pee pee sample. They have given me the tiniest container. I have no clue how I am going to aim into it. As gross as that sounds.. aiming into something is not my idea of fun. I have yet to find out how i manage on that front.

The latest hot gossip is that I had a first date with a guy yesterday. My sisters boyfriends brother to be exact... which, I know, sounds weird.. but as we discussed yesterday, it happened in Twins (the movie), so I guess its OK. Right? I know.. weird. Oh well. He is really nice though, and sweet and funny, which is good. Its all a bit new right now obviously, but he seems really 'into' me.. which doesn't happen... ever, so I am a bit taken aback by it all. I am useless with emotional stuff, dead inside some say, so its really hard for me to be like that with him.. I don't know, I'm trying to be nice but it doesn't come easily. Plus its hard spending time with someone when you feel sick all the time. Oops. haha.

I have been going to the movies a lot. Knowing - hmmmm... don't miss it, but don't expect it to be the best film. I really want people to see it, so they can be as disappointed in it as I am. that's mean, I know, but who cares? Haha. Marley and Me was OK.... I can't think of much else I have seen now. I just can't keep all these memories in my head, which goes to show that I need to blog more.

Right now I am looking forward to the weekend. I have cinema trips planned, a games night (Risk and Mario Kart) and date number 2, along with Easter - meaning I might eat some chocolate and get to drink my beloved Lucozade drink again. As I gave it up for Lent. And I'm also going shopping. All this on top of finding out my blood work results on Wednesday. Lord, give me strength. I know I shouldn't, but I am preparing for bad news. I have had a good run.. almost 24 years without having to go to hospital. I knew I couldn't be this lucky.

Sam

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